the aromas of the street still never fail to excite my taste buds. At every turn you are greeted by loud shouts and cries, laughter and chatter. Blarring music frrom the speakers of some make shift stall along the concrete walkway make you cringe but soon you grow accustomed to it and the wails fade into the background to become a dull hum fluctuating various pitches. the lanterns overhead cast a red glow over the night adding to the streets flavour and its distinctive nature.

i like being in the kitchen among all the 'oldies'. listening to conversation just float over me as i am bent over the baking tray carefully clipping flowers out of the dough. that reqires one to be graceful and delicate with ones fingers. definitely not me...so that is a very painstaking task. but i enjoy it...just being there among them...not being noticed, not being spoken to. its times like these that i like to fade into the background and just drink in the sights and sounds before me. the conversation is interesting and entertaining...no i am not evesdropping...

was suppose to spend the entire day out together. but now realised that i cant skip match. pissed off! argh...and havent got money yet so cant go shopping. another reason to get angry. bleah. the only thing to look forward to is at least we still have the morning and afternoon together - thankfully one without cameras at every angle for a change. *laughs* but nights are the most beautiful...nights spent standing together in semi-darkness looking out of the window into the distance at the lights, the moon and the sky...

Reality
Richard Bowie

met you by surprise
didn't realise
that my life would change forever.
saw you standing there
i didn't know i cared
there was something special in the air

dreams are my reality
the only kind of real fantasy
illusions are a common thing
i try to live in dreams
it seems as though its meant to be
dreams are my reality
a different kind of reality
i dream of loving in the night
and loving seems alright
although its only fantasy.

if you do exist
honey dont resist
show me your new way of loving
tell me that its true
tell me what to do
i feel something special about you.

dreams are my reality
the only kind of reality
maybe my foolishness has oassed
and maybe now at last
i see how real thing can be
dreams are my reality
a wonderous world where i like to be
i dream of holding you all night
and holding you seems right
perhaps thats my reality

met you by surprise
i didnt realise
that my life would chinge forever
tell me that its true
feelings that are new
i feel something special about you

dreams are my reality
a wonderous world where i like to be
illusions are a common thing
i try to live in dreams
although its only fantasy
dreams are my reality
i like to dream of you close to me
i dream of loving in the night
and loving you seems right
perhaps thats my reality

I aM GONna BUy A LoVe-A-loT BEar!! i doNT cAre!

the wood creaked beaneath our feets. the sea breeze blew gently rustling our hair and the leaves in the trees. waves crashed gently against the breakwater. in the distance we could see the silhouettes of the abandoned sail boats sitting gracefully atop the sea that seemed like a deep blue carpet in the night light. the velvet sky directly overhead was sprinkled with bright shiny sparks, illuminating the darkness. hand in hand we stolled along. lost in a world that was ours.

between work and work and more work i've barely had time to breathe. now i finally realise what parents mean when they say that money doesnt come by easy. oh well all the more i'm going to enjoy myself when i get my pay..have come up with an entire list of things that i wanna buy..hee² and we are gonna go out for dinner and go shopping! utter happiness...laughs...

there are so many things left to learn about playing netball that i have yet to grasp...i used to think it was similar to playing basketball but now i know that it isnt as easy as i thought i would be....its like learning how to speak a different language...through listening practice and experience you learn a little more day by day and gradually, you'll get better i guess...i hope...man i hope that i can skip that gradual part..

I'll be your cloud up in the sky
I'll be your shoulder when you cry
I hear your voices when you call me
I am your Angel,
And when all hope is gone I'm here
No matter how far you are, I'm near
It makes no difference who you are
I am your Angel, I am your Angel

i love winnie the pooh

i'm in love with chinatown...the sights the smells the people...lost in a web of intricate colours and flavours..transported back in time to the bustling streets of long ago...the street that never sleeps...the incessant crowds and shouts of the store vendors...the bright lights and lanterns that light up the alleys...its beautiful...a sight indeed to behold..

started work on monday...at this rate...i swear i'm gonna get fat...the food is fantastic and everyone is feeding and feeding me... "sera try this....sera try that" and everything is just too good to resist..the shops a pretty place...not too big and all..but nice and pretty...the kitchen is forever emitting wonderful aromas...heavenly...and of cos... angelo, gerald, julian, lingyi, shiwei you guys have been great company over these last few days... *big hug to everyone*

because of you i am the luckiesy girl in the world

love (n)
1. A deep, tender, ineffable feeling of affection and solicitude toward a person, such as that arising from kinship, recognition of attractive qualities, or a sense of underlying oneness.

2. A feeling of intense desire and attraction toward a person with whom one is disposed to make a pair; the emotion of sex and romance.

3. Sexual passion. Sexual intercourse. A love affair.

love...lust...how then would you know the difference...

red and blue pieces a top the black and white plane...being shifted all over its smooth surface...in my mind i hear that all too familar voice...corse..deep...loud...intense..suddenly i'm thirteen again...gathered round that short stool...in front of that intimidating mass of darkness...the sun scorching down on me....squinting up at the object in his hands..those red and blue pieces a top the black and white plane.

someone just added me on friendster...and i am totally melting! *laughs* doing everything i can to keep myself from gushing...breathe sera...breathe...

played in my first neball match yesterday..sorry guys for messing up...thanks for being so encouraging...promise i'll train harder and figure everything out okay? but its like really fun...i have so missed the feeling of competing...rushing up and down the court..the adrenaline..the yelling the shouting...the sweat trickling down my face and my back..even the blisters on my foot...but there's just one complain...i hate the Three Feet Rule..it sucks and it annoys the hell out of me...

second day of the hols and i miss school...miss the cacophony...miss the familar faces.

:darling i'm sorry::
i'm running...running as fast as my legs can take me....i dont know what i'm running from..i only know i have to get away..from this place...from me...

::sick and tired::
the rain fell gently at first, tiny water droplets on the window pane. it seemed pretty even..watching the trail they left behind..then the wind began to pick up speed and it started to get colder and colder..the rain heavier and heavier till it came in torrents...soaking me to the skin, mixing with my tears till i could no longer tell the difference...

schools out...but i'm sick. can you believe it?? how ironical when you spend the entire year conjouring up ailments to get out of lessons and when the long awaited holidays are finally here, you really fall ill..this sucks..

noithing muchs been happening in my life..just very happy to have gotten my dear friend back....missed you loads babe...thanks for being there for me..my no.3..:) tee hee..

::i swear we are mad::
feel like a lion let out of my cage..devouring everything in sight...the sun is scorching down on me, i feel the wind in my face. running...running as fast as my feet can take me..i'm panting, beads of pespiration trickling down my back but i'm loving every minute of it....really glad that i've been accepted as one of you. had a good time today at traing...netballers thank you so much...

today was a damn wasted day...i swear...hibernated the entire day...lost in our own space..in the darkness and wonderful seclusion of the classroom...from talking to sleeping from reading to computer games...we did it all...i felt comfortable, at home, at ease...love you guys.

::i'm still afraid::
run. it seems like the natural thing to do when you are faced with fears and troubles. hide behind a facade and smile at the world through the mask you put on...see everything through the pair of sunglasses you wear...still living in the shadow of the past...

watched uptown girl today...it was really great. i cried can you believe it? but what brittany murphy said in the show just struck me...about being afraid and how she (the little girl was too) and she hoped that together they would help each other overcome it...it just reminded me all the more of how important it is to have someone there by your side. holding you hand each and every step of the way. but then its important to remember that you cant depend on that all the time. we are all perfectly capable of standing on our own two feet and walking without aid...ultimately, we still are the ones taking the walk down the road of our lives...

friends are like the railings you hold on to when you feel unsteady and when you're about to fall but at the same time they are the lamp posts that light up the darkness and show you the way...the very same ones you dance and swing around when you are singing out in joy...