Adam Sandler - I Wanna Grow Old With You

i wanna make you smile
whenever you're sad
carry you around when your arthritis is bad
all i wanna do, is grow old with you

I'll get you medicine when your tummy aches
Build you a fire if the furnace breaks
So, it could be so nice growing old with you,....

I'll miss you
Kiss you
Give you my coat when you are cold
Need you
Feed you
Even let you hold the remote control.

So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink
Put you to bed when you've had too much to drink
Oh I could be the man that grows old with you
I wanna grow old with you.

darling please wipe the frown from your face cos it hurts me to see you so upset.
in a day, would you remember the numerous times you smiled or the once that you cried...would you remember the many times he said he loved you or the words which cut you like a knife? in funny how in life what people seem to notice first are the flaws, what you remember is the pain...
grey clouds are collecting above me...fearful...ferocious.. foreboding...its threatening to unleash its fury all over me once again. i can barely see the rays of the sun through their thick foilage anymore. but she's struggling to make her way through. trying a best to force her way to the crevices and chase the intruders away. she's not going to give up and neither will i. i refuse to let you go without a fight...
you mean so much to me.

you will never know

Frank Sinatra - The Way You Look Tonight

Some day, when I'm awfully low,
When the world is cold,
I will feel a glow just thinking of you...
And the way you look tonight.

Yes you're lovely, with your smile so warm
And your cheeks so soft,
There is nothing for me but to love you,
And the way you look tonight.

With each word your tenderness grows,
Tearing my fear apart...
And that laugh that wrinkles your nose,
It touches my foolish heart.

Lovely ... Never, ever change.
Keep that breathless charm.
Won't you please arrange it ?
'Cause I love you ... Just the way you look tonight.

they hurried along...beautiful silky cheongsams, their heels clicking against the floor. faces perfectly made up: deep red lips, pink cheeks...a single red rose perched high above their heads. i took a step to the side to let them pass, smiled and waved at the familiar faces...a sense of jealously, envy and longing...i belonged there...among the girls, their laughter, chatter and cries..
the familiar strains of the dance song sounded over the speakers as the curtains were drawn...couldn't help but feel the tears welling up inside me..bit down on my lips to hold them back...i was supposed to be there with them...twirling on my stilittos...a wide smile on my face...the audience looking up with bated breath at every single one of us...you are no longer you...but one of the flower girls as you give youself to the music and to the dance...

stop by the roadside to take a breather. i desperately need a rest. see all the unfamiliar faces pass me by in a blur. everyone seems to have something to do, somewhere to go...like ants scurrying halter skalter all over the place, caught up in their own little worlds. no one seems to have noticed my absence. i scan the crowds for someone i know, a friendly faces but everyone just seems oblivious to me...perhaps thats a good thing. i want to blend into the masses. like a chemeleon to camoflague myself so i can go unoticed, unseen. sick and tired of everyone looking at me with that suspicious and acusing look in their eyes. i am not a bitch, neither am i a rebellious wild problem child. i know i am in no way perfect but i am definitely not as bad as who you all make me out to me...things dont always have to be what they seem...
she was decked out in a translucent white tube and a short denim skirt. her slender figure and ivory skin could not help but draw stares from passerbys...with her back towards us, all we could see was straight blond hair that highlighted the fairness of her skin. sudddenly she turned around. lo and behold..she was actually a he....
never never believe everything you see.

theres someone knocking at the back of my head. an incessent continuous pounding that wont go away. lying atop purple cotton. cant seem to to get you out of my mind.

i will never ever forget the look in his eyes...
gingerly he reached for his necklace and undid the clasp...gazed silently at the ring on the chain. that piece of silver reflecting the light..and the aeroplane...that little ornament dangling inconspiciously from the thin string...gently he slid the ring off and onto the table. never once removing his gaze. his eyes unblinking, his stare intent...i could see his eyes start to glaze over a little, the first teardrops begining to form. he bit his lips and i felt the pain...sensed the sorrow. i can still hear the soft barely audible thud the ring made when it finally hit the table..rolling just a little before settling down just in the middle...it took every muscle in me to hold back and not reach over to hug him...to tell him that everything would be alright..but then i knew that it would just be a lie...cos it wasnt. isnt. if i could, i would take away all the pain and all the sorrow

i was happy just lying there watching you..just being near..

tonight was one of those nights where you could see the stars overhead...little bright specks littered across the night sky. halted in midstep to gaze up at them....closed my eyes and made a wish...its times like this when you just suddenly realise the beauty all around you...it doesnt take much...just little things like stars...a toddler laughing and playing in the rain...a friendly bark from a passing dog...the white clouds gently crawling across the blue sky or simply the orange glow that the sun casts over the earth in the evening...and of cos there's you. more beautiful than everything put together...

got cheer and x mas photos
finally...

just because you hold a position higer than me does not make you better than me. simply because you are older does not make you superior. limping around on that walking stick of yours...the metal so cold to touch. just like your stare, your glare, your heart. hissing and spitting like a venomous viper. baring your fangs at whoever passes your way. you're worse than a viper cos you devour your own kind and take pleasure in it. see the glimmer in your eyes that edge in your voice...each carefully punctuated word piercing through your victim. and the pride...the pride that you take in seeing them squirm, suffer and slowly wither under your intense wrath. you're heartless. inhuman.

today i saw a rainbow.
welcome back into my life.
i've missed you.

first day of school...a lot of thoughts..a lot of greviences...
nice to be back again i guess..among the familiar faces, the chatter, laughter and cacaphony of school life. ryan, ben, charlotte, grace, abby, lijie and just everyone it feels good to be back...missed everyone terribly...today the school was bathed in a myraid of colours...the j1s decked out in their respective school uniforms...kinda reminded me about my own orientation..not that i was really in school much...but more of the excitement and apprehension of being in a new school...in an unfamiliar enviornment with stange faces and BOYS...haha...somehow the idea of being in a mixed school didnt appeal to me much...found in rather revolting in fact...cant say i love it now...but i guess it definitely is less disgusting...*laughs*

bitch bitch bitch my teachers are all so totally bitchy man i swear...esp math....i want Mrs gay...*sob sob* i miss her so so much...and there's no aircon in the B and C blocks...majorly stuffy....and more than anything....i miss you

My Immortal
Evanescence

I'm so tired of being here.
Suppressed by all my childhood fears.
And if you have to leave,
I wish that you would just leave.
Cause your presence still lingers here,
and it won't leave me alone.
These wounds won't seem to heal,
this pain is just too real,
there's just too much that time cannot erase.
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears,
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears.
I held your hand through all of these years.
But you still have...
All of me.
You used to captivate me by your resonating mind,
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind.
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice has chased away all the sanity in me.
These wounds won't seem to heal,
this pain is just too real,
there's just too much that time cannot erase.
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears,
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears.
I held your hand through all of these years.
But you still have...
All of me.
I tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone.
But though you're still with me,
I've been alone all along.
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears,
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears.
I held your hand through all of these years.
But you still have...
All of me.

a month of hard work climaxed tonight admist flickering blue and red lights...the familiar strands of gadget boy and mr personality screaming from the speakers overhead. working us..working the crowd into a frenzy. you can hear their cries, calls, cheers, adrenaline pumping through our viens. each kick progressively higher, each punch increasing in power...our smiles radiating the excitment we feel inside... for that fleeting moment everyone comes together as one in sync to give it all our best shot...the music takes over us and up on stage, we are cheerleaders and dancers, the best we know we can be. nicole, mei, por, min lin, cheng ngee, kristine, vernia, ct, qilin, liying... even cole and peter we were wonderful...gonna miss you guys so...hopefully we'll dance together again someday...SyNerGy always...