just got back from howls moving castle
which is simply just lovely
transported into a magical world and back again.
howl is gorgeously lovely and pretty
even as a ravan. (:
maybe it really was a dream
because reality is a nightmare
and it just seemed to beatiful to be real
and yes i guess it was apt that we were both drifting both towards and away from states of unconsciousness and consciousness.
sleep is illusive
i havent slept well in days
not that i'm tired
but my eye bags are terrible
absolutely terrible
i look ghastly
rahhs
had my first and perhaps last magarita
definitely NOT one of my favourite cocktails
strawberry and yoghurt smoothie at conrad lobby lounge is just lovely
watching season5 of CSI
which requires my utmost concentration
angelo & xavier
HAPPY BIRTHDAY
the dancing was just lovely
sensual
exquisite
the brilliant colours
fantastic music
amazing
simply amazing
thank you wayne for such a lovely treat
feeling very domesticated
spent the evening at tangs basement - the household section
wandering among pots pans electronics and yada
discovering loads of interesting utensils
apple corer, chesse cutter, countless whisks
very specialised
so cute
*laughs
ben finally settled on a pasta pot
the practical present for the practical mum
lights on trees look terribly out of place
gentle ripples on the water surface
victorian architecture against mordern frameworks
concrete towers alit in all their majesty
the wind blows relentlessly
a cat scurries across the ground
in the background
under the glow of the evening sky
the band plays on
i left my phone at work!
at least, i hope its there
feeling freaking pissed off with myself
and majorly handicapped
praying noone calls
because then
i'd really kick myself in the butt
ARGH
just came back from salsa
feet totally blistered
dead beat
definitely way more difficult than i thought or expected it to be.
my minds been over active for the wrong reason
it keeps wandering
my thoughts being stronger than i am
means that i cant control them
even in my dreams they wont leave me
its getting hard to distinguish dreams from reality
they have all become intermingled into one
"dont stop loving me. i can see it draining out of you. i meant nothing. if you love me, you'll forgive me."
luncheon at angus house in early celebration of angelo's birthday
well the waitresses are just totally quaint in their maid's outfits of white aprons over black skirts
and the white thingys in their hair
but what really did it was the black courts and white socks.
it TOTALLY killed me.
you feel transported back into another realm of roomservice and chambermaids
entertaining
especially when they are all fawning over you.
the food was simply exquisite.
caught closer thereafter
its really a good film if you ask me
thought provoking
romance.
comedy.
betrayal.
they had it all.
is love ever really enough?
they each loved
but differently
in varying degrees and intensity
in pursuit of their own happiness
they sacrificed others
and became so caught up and lost in themselves
so being in love became the wierd excuse for hurting and harming people.
unfortunately with jude law
love wasnt enough
simply because he didnt trust
and perhaps
because he didnt love enough
because he put their love to the test.
how typical it is of us to want to have to know the truth
to know everything that happened
the crux though
is how one reacts to it
you can choose to walk away
or face up to it
accept and forgive
love even more
and move on.
the past will only be a shadow and a stumbling block in your path.
forgiveness is the key to acceptance
and thereafter
to moving onward.
i choose to forgive
and perhaps in time
i will forget.
burps
i am just simply eating way too much for my own good
working with them totally makes you fat
i think i have just put back those few measely pounds i've shed and more
craps
and with work till the sunsets
my blades are collecting dust in the store
i miss them
arghs
i will the images to stop
but yet they keep replaying themselves before my eyes
try to surpress them beneath the sights around me
but to no avail
they are simply too strong
and ferocious
there is no holding them back
and all i can do is to grit my teeth
and endure each painful memory
reopening old scars
causing new wounds.
i love the opera
well did something really unchacteristic myself today
more than one thing actually
but oh well
crazily bold of me
i think i'm playing with fire
but WTF
i've already been burnt
what difference is this gonna make?
they lie in wait among the weeds
unseen by naked eyes
a facade of calm
but they are there
lurking behind the tall grass
watching
waiting
knives in hand
to pounce when you least expect
sink the glistening metal into soft flesh
edith lijie ryan
abby vivien prisc wei wen
angelo juls ben tengs
all my dearies
i love you
no matter how much you try
no matter how hard you struggle
no matter how far you run
nothing changes
you are still enclasped in chains
their heavy weight pulling you down
the rough ends of the metal biting into flesh
red
raw
started work last friday with edith and prisc
its so much nicer when you're with your friends
the day just seems to go by so much more quickly
and of cos lunch company!
*laughs*
and we can go to work in jeans!
wee~
glorious
time to contemplate purchasing another pair of levis
feeling kinda brain dead now
i think its the medication.
woozy woozy woozy
everything is spinning rather bad
i willed time to stall
that the world would freeze
or at the very least
slow to a crawl
so i could savour that moment
its scent
feel
taste
thinking back though
i was strangely devoid of emotion and thought.
the 1st day of the lunar new year
been pretty much ritual
nothing very exciting
CSI-ed to past the hours
still a few more before dinner
foods the furthest thing from my mind
i'm bored.
it's everywhere i go, it's everything i see
when i sleep i dream and it gets me by
i can make believe that your here tonight
that your here tonight
If i could you find now things would get better
we could leave this town and run forever
i know somewhere, somehow we'll be together
let your waves crash down on me
and take me away
girls are vicious creatures
even young innocent ones.
went back to relief teach at st nicks
a whole new perspective
saw innocent pri girls
taunt and tease
bring tears to the eyes of their peers
children are never really that naive
rushed home to bake with priscilla
cream chesse
digestive biscuits
whipping cream
and what nots.
definitely fun.
i love you *muaks
stood frozen in my tracks
throat dry
tongue lost somewhere in the distance
hands shipped to the freezer
a million thoughts
countless emotions
a single heartbeat
early celebration for huijie
almost 20 but still such a boy
unfortunately the cheesecake melted
):
thankfully prisc brought the spare
laughter and chatter over coffee
i could definitely get used to this
but even in sleep i cannot find rest
thoughts haunt and torment
relentless
i wake
from never really falling asleep
my cheeks are wet
been wasting the days away
gloriously jobless
lazy mornings and languid afternoons
doing nothing in particular
cept roaming the streets.
paid a visit back to SA
and St Nicks
a nice walk down memory lane
revisit those old untouched sites in my brain
already collecting dust
its nice to sit there and drink in the sights
replay the scenes in my mind
see all the smiling faces
hear their voices
while no money has been coming in
cash has been rapidly flowing out
accquisitions
`black zara pants
`nice skirt for work
`white topshop top
`pink forever21 spec top
`teva slippers
`nice cute shoes
hopefully CNY will help me recuperate my losses
sadly the most prized possessions cannot be purchased.
shopping with tracy and her mummy today
such a girlie day out (:
shopping
tea
plucking eyebrows
shop somemore
how awfully pampering
*laughs
pity my dear dear feet
time to pay them a little attention
scholls cracked heel cream's calling.
You won't cry for my absence, I know
You forgot me long ago
Am I that unimportant
Am I so insignificant
Isn't something missing
Isn't someone missing me
Even though I'm the sacrifice
You won't try for me, not now
Though I'd die to know you love me
I'm all alone
Isn't someone missing me
...
And if I bleed
I'll bleed,
Knowing you don't care
And if I sleep just to dream of you
And wake without you there
Isn't something missing
its so much safer to just skim the water's suface
cos there everything is calm, peaceful and lovely
its only when you go deeper that the real danger looms.
Jobless
yupps so i have been bumming myself around doing nothing in particular except wasting my life away.
went to he beach alone
which is oh so unlike me
but then i guess i am getting more used to this solitary thing
it isnt all that bad.
"you just have to sleep in the center of the bed"
ben & Jerry's is like the greatest sin ever i swear
between ben and i we polished off an entire tub of chubby hubby even before finding neverland started
and boy am i feeling oh so fat
*sighs.
ah well angelo is out of camp!
that means i have company. (:
and whiskey!
no more bugging working and schooling people
oh please pray that i get the ocbc job before i rot and die and go broke