and i just wanna say
"thank you god"
so its back into the silence
into the darkness of my reverie
retreat back to that cold empty dungeon
with myself and my tears for company
a lost thing could i never find,
nor a broken thing mend:
And i fear i shall be all alone
When i get towards the end.
Who will be there to comfort me
Or who will be my friend?
cos of edithdarling's visit
my blades have to rot for another day
and my tummy grows another inch or two
blame baileys and fish crackers
i have no self control unfortunately
but didnt we all already know that
an essay thats waiting to be written
for interview on Friday
but the heads stagnant
the mind lazy.
and once again i'm back to procrastinating
i so have to get my lazy ass to work.
wish me luck please.SMUaccountancy is not my cup of tea
delicously tasteful
sinful indulgence
feel the warm glow of sunshine on my skin
the gentle breeze through my hair
the soft kiss of light
triumphant over darkness
but all too soon the clouds will return
and the faint rays will once again
be hidden behind the thick foilage.
and i can do is wait
hope and pray
for the sun to peak her head
through the curtains again
I lie down and blind myself with laughter
A quick fix of hope is what I'm needing
And how I wish that I could turn back the hours
But I know I just don't have the power
in a panic attack
have 2 letter of recommendations to write
cos my darling teachers
and lovely ex-employer
are too busy to get down to it
so they have very lovingly entrusted me with the task of writing
while they will kindly endorse it
grrs
i totally suck at this
and if all times,
my dear friend has to be in army now
baby i neeed help
*screams in vain*
on a brighter note
went back to st nicks for lunch today
so many things have changed
all the strange faces
the different colours
the absence of familiar articles
but thankfully there are somethings that never will change
those welcoming smiles
the flashes of recognition in their eyes
the delight
thats what makes it all worthwhile
(apart from orange bowl..hahaa)
thats what keeps be going back
i can only fly as far as you're willing to let me
you want me to leave
but your chains are still clasped tightly around my feet
my wings are clipped
and i cant get away
please unlock the chains
open the doors
and let me go.
i can only wait
and hope and pray
that time will somehow fly by
but i know it wont
the sun seems to crawl across the horizon
as do the hands on the clock.
i'm halfway there
but yet the end still seems eternity away.
noise
staplers clicking
the sound of pages turning
footsteps on the wooden floor
laughter chatter
instructions for things that matter
the clock on the wall's ticking
i can hear my tummy rumbling
a chair dragged on the parquet
so many sounds
so much noise
but ones missing
that is-
the sound of your voice
amazing form
beautiful lines
grace and strength flowing with the beats of the drums
exquisite
pictures from ballet under the stars
had a lovely time
thank you my darlings
Happy Birthday TRACYdarling
its back at work again
actually
school more like it
with all the lessons we've been having
terribly painful
for my brain and my limbs
having to sit still for awfully long stretches of time
ah wells shouldnt complain
being able to reach home by 530 every day is such a blessing.
(:
words elude me
sleep beckons.
a smile upon my face
the absence of the moon was felt
cloudy sky
a dark shade of gray -
not quite black
the river so still
it seemed like a sheet of silk
you could almost walk on the surface
yet not sink
tread gingerly along the river edge
faintly make out elongated shadows in the water
the street lamps that line the banks
overshadowed by the foilage of threes
the night silent
empty
still
ours
once again the tower crumbles
it comes crashing down to the ground
rocking the earth
i stand rooted to the spot
bare the full brunt of its fury
unwilling to abandon that which i love
the foundations
from the ashes
we will rise again.
